Today is my 30th Birthday! AHHHHHHH!!!!!
Now that it’s out of my system (which I feel I have been holding inside since yesterday) I can share my thought’s I hope with a bit more clarity.
I am exhausted. Who knew that that effect would come from no where?! I never got go on my trip. I got scared. It didn’t help that my family made me feel bad about leaving them on my birthday… I hate that guilt thing. All I really wanted was a day to reflect, a day to gather my thoughts and think carefully of the actions that I wanted to transpire in the next thirty years. Instead my mother took me out to buy my birthday present and my cake (I’m not a big fan cake).
I always feel awkward about anyone buying me a birthday present or christmas present or any present to be honest. I don’t really know what I’ve done to deserve it! I know it’s a social norm, but it makes me uncomfortable that any money should be spent on me. I feel like I wasn’t completely on the ‘Nice List’ if you know what I mean. I actually think I should have bought my mom a gift for being kind enough to push and not let the doctor come in with pliers to get me out. My parents are much much too old to be buying me anything and as I’ve gotten older my tastes in anything has only gotten more expensive! (I can’t help it… I like nice things). I bouquet of flowers will be more than enough to have me smiling, and the expensive things I can purchase.
With all the driving around we did today I got home tired and a bit drained. I don’t do well with lots of people around, it takes a lot out of me. With all that said and done, we got home exhausted and ready for cheesecake… Mmmmm Cheesecake….
I had to grab another slice. Sorry it’s that good.
I came home to find flowers and a ballon sent from Jules. My heart lit up and sang it’s happy little song. I really do love flowers, and these were exceptionally beautiful, and her note welcoming to the ‘club’ caused a good belly laugh. The thought of getting older with my friends is lovely. I also received a card from CH. I think I’ve mentioned my love of cards, but if I haven’t let me tell you how much I love them. I especially loved that he placed a complain to Hallmark about not having any cards with ‘evolutionary genetics’ as a theme. Plus, anything that is not a bill is always welcomed. I also received another $20 from Nordstrom… must be all my shopping rewards, I’m up to $80 dollars in a month, a card from my Congressman telling me “Happy Birthday”… I think I need to stop calling their offices, and one bill… Dratt! So close on having no bills come in on my birthday.
I will say this. I feel happy and healthy (as healthy as someone who hasn’t had a physical with a doctor in seven years can), and might I add I look great! I woke up to run and noticed that I look healthy, and my running and post workout regime has definitely shown it’s fruits today.
I will be drinking tomorrow. I am glad that this year I didn’t get plastered like I have every birthday before… My golly… I am growing up, hahaha!